It has been a while hasnt it? I could write about things like what I got for christmas and what I have been doing but that is not interesting enough to stand the test of time so shall just get down to the nitty gritty of my mumblings...

I am rather tired, I have just done 3 consecutive days at work : 7-3, 8-4, 8-4 . I am not used to these early starts! I keep going to bed at silly hours too. Oh well. There is something rather mystical and special about walking the streets when it is still dark and you can't see a soul on the paths or the roads. I think I caught the sunrise yesterday as well, very nice it was too :)

I feel as if I am being rather blunt and unjovial in my tiredness so please forgive me. The past week, particularly the past 3 days or so have been rather eventful. I have been rather thoughtful on my travels to and from work and just before bed. I have kept thinking about deep seated things that provoke a feeling or reaction that I can't quite put my finger on and quantify.
Why just on the way home today I came up with a question. Now what was it?.... I think it was..... If you do something that somebody would not want you to do, but they don't know about it. Is it wrong? Particularly if the something they dont want you to do is irrational?

Ok. I think that has come out a bit complicated so I will use an example. Um.... How bout... If a person had a ball and did not want their friend to throw it against a wall in case it popped, would it be wrong to throw it against the wall in their presence? Well, I guess yes. No matter how irrational that fear is, it would upset the person. What about if the person wasn't there when you did it? If there was a strong chance of the ball popping, I would say yes again. It would be being careless with someone elses stuff. Now, what if you knew that there was no chance of the ball popping at all, and that they would never find out about it. Would that be wrong? Yes of course it wouldnt hurt them directly, but it would be a disregard for their wished no matter how absurd they might be. Does that make it wrong? Am I just being pernickety?

I appreciate that that is a rather random and abstract thing to be thinking about but I just thought it was interesting how such small things can change the morality of a situation. Don't ask me how I got on to the subject.... Oh wait. I know. I saw a guy in a car exaclty the same as keiths. Figuring that it was unlikely that two such unusual cars would exist in the same area I wondered if the guy driving it was his old boss from the garage just using the car to nip to sainsburies for some snacks whilst it was in for a service.

Ok I am just being babblingly random and boring now so i will move swiftly on...

I got my guitar on the 23rd I think and it is beautiful. I do love it and can acutally play some stuff on it! Simple stuff it is. All power chords and riffs but it is a start. All I really need is to learn a couple of barre chords and power chords without drop D and i am pretty much there. :D
I have just wrote two songs on guitar which is actually very easy to do. You dont even have to know what you are playing if you can wirte it doen in tab or remember it :) I wrote one which is ok about a camera man working on a film set of a movie goddess that he really wants. He thinks she is amazing when she is just a hyperreal bimbo and she thinks he is just a schmo (I love that word!) on a camera. Ok it doesnt sound that great but the cord progression isnt bad.

The second song is much better and has been in my head for a couple of days. I will put it on my writing stuff, I think this one is actually worth a look for a change! The lyrics are among my best if I do say so myself (although that may not be much hype!) and they song actually means something to me. I wont go on about it here but take a look. It is called (rather unimaginatively!) "Katie".

I am currently listening to my MP3 that took ages to decide on the colour with! This is only about my 3rd listen since I got a few days back. I love the fact that all of the music is just there neatly catalogued (after 4 hours lol). I can just choose a multitude of criteria like album, artist, playlist or genre and the correct ones of 1046 songs will play. Heaven :) The only problem I have now is that I have so many songs to choose from is that I want to change half way thorugh a song as I go "oooh I wonder what that one sounds like on this thing!". I still havent got the equaliser quite right yet either but i will eventually :)

Well. Despite thinking I had reams and reams to talk about my mind has gone blank. No doubt I will realise what I want to say at an inconvenient and obscure time! Ok then.

Bye bye for the moment