I got a new shiney phone! Yay! It takes pics and vids and you can voice activate it and it has editing software on it and did I mention it was shiney? Ahhh the smell of consumer fetishism.
I keep fiddling with my phone, I think I am unnerving Katherine. The games are rather diverting too. Very dangerous.

I am writing this again in the library with a very runy nose. I have had an impressive headcold for the past 3 or 4 days which has caused me to stay off school (and work!) for 2 days. Things I have learn from my illness: 1 - Sudafed does no work, 2 - How to actually use my phone properly, 3 - how to shop for chrimbo pressies people actually want 4 - I am getting some awsomely, uberly, massively ace dripping in loveliness carbon fibre drumsticks from Nicks for my b day, 5 - I am getting the most beautiful handmade silk guitar strap from Kat 6 - sitting by the fire for long periods of time makes you burn, 7 - Reading does not help a headache 8 - Always, always, always carry loads of tissues with you when you are producing large quantities of alarmingly yellow/green ick from your nose.

Not bad for a big of a sniffle eh?

*sigh* I am pretty bored. I arrived in school at 8.50am and have had exactly one formal lesson today. I have to hang around till 4 cos I am going to Don Valley for Alive TV training. In this time I have at least found another 3 chrimbo pressies and ordered them. Yay! I am being very good this year. I have done about half of my shopping and by saturday I will have most of it. Woo!

Ooooh its my birthday on saturday and I am actually looking forward to it now. I am less depressed about being 18 now than I was. I figure that although I have been a little depressed the last few days over all the crap I have to put up with till at least June, I now realise that after that I have the longest holiday I have EVER had!! Even better than the May-September jobbie of Yr11! Yay!!! Of course in this time I can loaf around shamelessly, earn loads of money, go to cool places (like Iceland! Yes!) and of course, loaf around some more. Who knows, maybe I will actually get round to writing that novel :). Damn thats a good story!

The only problem I now have is putting up with this oppressive and soul crushing feeling of being trapped in a monotenous yet grueling cycle of school, work and homework. Of course even putting up with this creates problems. I need to be up there, active and adrenalinified if I am going to excell. I don't want to just coast through and get good grades like I always do. I wanna cane myself and do the best damn work I have ever done and get amazing grades! If I want this career I need to get going and do it right. Unfortunately I am finding this difficult as no matter what I seem to do I always feel drained and tired. Although going to bed at sensible times has diminished the "oh my god I need to close my eyes or my head will split open" kind of tiredness, now I just have this gentle throb of apathy and general grogginess. I hope it is just because of this cold but I am not so sure. Maybe if I ate a little better then I would be more alert or if I took a little more exercise. But of course to do this I need time and (more importantly effort). The two things I am running short of.

Bloody vicious circle......

At least I have this Saturday to look forward to and after that Chrimbo! I had just better remember to tell Becky at work the times I am willing to work over chrimbo. If they even think about giving me the shifts they gave me at half term I do not know what I am going to do. I desperately need that time to relax and align myself back to a normal, healthy level of awakeness. I am already gonna have a stack of revision and coursework to do, plus uni offers (hopefully). If I get any more shifts than I ask for I think I am just gonna freak out. Worse than last time. (And I still have a scar from where I punched the wall 5 weeks ago.) I can't take it out on Becky as she is so nice and I can't leave work as believe it or not you can be fairly flexible with your hours unlike other places. I will add that on my to do list on my phone.....

Brrrr! Its cold outside. I can't remember it being so cold for so long. Maybe its just my memory but I dont remember it being this cold for years. It is supposed to be the coldest winter for ages. Ooooh! It is supposed to snow tomorrow or a bit later! About time too. To say it is mid to late november I find it a bit weird that it has been 4 degrees for a week during the day and it hasnt rained once.Bizarre...

Well. I think I am going to be kicked out soon. Apparently "The library isnt open afterschool tonight" so I will go and be bored in the common room. I still have 50 mins before I am picked up. And then after 1 1/2 hours of training it will take me an age (probably an ice one judging by temperature) bfore i get home.....