I dont want to go to bed yet and I want to write something but again I am not really sure what. I guess I could talk about work but I dont think I really want ot, its kindof boring and I have so much to do I sont know if it is actually possible to do or not.

OH MY GOD I HAVENT EVEN STARTED MY ENGLISH AND I HAVE 2-3 WEEKS TO HAVE IT COMPLETED AND I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT THE HELL I AM GOING TO WRITE ABOUT!

Ok that feels better now that is off my chest. Moving on....

Ok. What can I do as a little update? Ah yes. I sent off my provisional drivers liscence form today. Maybe I will be driving soon! Yay! There are so many places that I have always wanted to go but have never really had the chance to do just so with mum and Dad. I would lover to go in to the peak district for instance and find this enourmous waterfall gorge that I have seen on TV that looks absaloutely stunning. Whenever I am meditating or whatever I imagine myself there. Even that story fragment I wrote on my writing stuff is inspired by that place. Ooooh how lovely it would be to go there and just.... sit and look at the tumbling water and be content. Mmmmmm.

The north coast of Northern Ireland looks beautiful too. I would adore it if I could drive around the North coast taking in the dramatic cliffs, the rolling sea, the lush green and the quaint little villages. Oh yeah...

I think that is one of my dreams hehe. Along with visiting Seoul in Korea, Tokyo, The great Wall of China, New York and Reykjavik. And of course after I have become a top respected music journalist under control of several newspapers and magazines whilst being a rock star. And most definantly after I have retired to a job in a my own little ice cream van touring the sea sides of britain..... ah that would be the life....

Well. At least I am on my way to a few of those goals. I am learning to drive, have read a book about Korean culture (so different from our own it is really very interesting) and am learning to read Han Geul, am saving up to go on holiday to somewhere like Reykjavik in the summer, spending loads of time practising guitar and drums so I can join a band at uni, am half way there to the best journalism uni course in the country...... and I make a damn fine McFlurry! Wait a minute.... I am on my way to all of those goals.... rock on!

I guess all is good really. I just have to see little things like pulling a 3000 word English dissotation of which I know nothing about from knowhere and I am laughing. I guess it will be one of those things that I will worry and worry about and it will all just be fine in the end. Just look at those exams a few weeks ago. They all turned out just fine with minimal revision. I think....

Well I hope all will be well anyway. Even if it is not English is my weakest subject and I still have 4 more form which to get 3 Bs for Sheffield. Not getting in to Sheffield is not an option however.... I have my heart set on that place now. It is just perfect for me in every way and will really test and push me. Damnit I want to go to Sheffield! And I guess I will. I just have to not stop and slack but instead get shit done and I will get where I have always wanted to be.

Isnt it strange that you spend 14 years in school learning stuff only to be told at the end "See ya. So something decent with your life and all that.....". Hmmm. You expect something a little more extravagant after spending the first 7/9ths of your life studing for the benefit of society. How ironic that I will hopefully become part of the low brow part of society. What Marxists would call part of the superstructure and what the new right would ironically label a decadant superficial establishment that lowers all 'standards' to the 'lowest common denominator'. Thats a bit of an 'up yours' to the establishment isnt it? I didn't intend it to be but I cant help but admit that is quite a satisfying thought at some level....

Hey. Wasnt I supposed to have a bath or shower tonight?.... Damn it.

Sorry about the tangeant there but now I will have to improvise tommorrow. I guess I could straighten the hair and just have a quick bath without washing the hair..... oh wait. Is the water even on then? Damn it. I will have to think of something. I bet I am late for work again. I can't be significantly late or I might be the one that the new boss Alex (funny eh Tina?) makes an example of. Well. In that case I will be off to bed before I get zonked tommorrow.

Bye bye for now. I know that you wont get the little asides and the comment below. Well. You aint supposed to lol. You can ask me if you like but you wont get an answer from me! Lol.

Bye for now.

Note to self: I must write this now at 23.57 as it only occured to me what day today is at about 5.00pm and I have only just recalled again a few minutes ago. While it is still February the 18th I will acknowledge this date and celebrate it. I hope in years to come when I read this I still remember and feel the significance. AJALVP