Just finished the first part of my Meida CW after beating myslef up about it for ages. I am really pleased at how it is going and am confident that I can get a good mark from it. A B maybe? I really hope so! I dont even mind getting up early like today when I could have a lie in! It is now 9.46am so I thouhgt I would do a quick blog while I have the chance. With 3 other blogs I rarely have the chance at the moment, plus I can't get on to this at school because it (along with almost everything else) is now blocked.

I understnad their point at blocking stuff, after all things like rathergood.com are hardly educational. But when there is a load of computers not being used and you want to type something into a blog (which I am sure is very good for English skills :) ) you cant. Plus it often blocks things that actually are educational and important. I cant get online to see existing media essays anymore because they discuss phallic imagery and sexual transgressiveness. Kinda fruity I know but thats half of what I have learnt about this year lol.

I understand that that kind of thing is not suitable for the younger kids but it is all in an intellectual essay that even I as a keen media student cant be bothered to read. Some year 10 that hates reading isnt going to understand or even care about the phallacy of a cigarrette!

Oh well. No point complaining now really. I could of course get my laptop and scam my way into wireless school internet conection...heehee. I do need a laptop for uni and now my D:\ has broken on this computer inconveniently losing me loads of stuff that I didnt need but really wanted. All my neatly catalogued 8 gig of music for example. I could get it back but it is scattered all over the place on tens of CDs and across the net. I lost the games I downloaded too not to mention the few classic games from the 1980s that I dont think are even on shareware they are that rare.

The thing i am really dissapointed at is losing my Muse scores though. There were loads that I wanted to learn properly on guitar and now the site I got them off is down too (along with MX tabs for some reason). So my collection of tabs is greatly diminished.

*sigh*

Oh well.

Oooooh!

I GOT IN AT SHEFFIELD!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!

Oh yes. I was so happy about that! I just went "Yes! Get in!" and punched the air for about 5 minutes. I am so relieved. I wouldnt mind going to Lincoln but Sheffield is just ideal: the best journalism course in the country, the place I most want to live, one of the cheapest places to live,nice and close to home but far enough away to be independant.

It looks like Kat and Becky will probably both go to Huddersfield which was really bothering me. I was worried that they will carry on being the best of mates and I will drift away but with me so close to mome I could visit them anytime they are home :)

It also means I get to see my mates that are staying here: Keith, Tina, Mike, Nick, Kat B...

YES! I am so happy about it heehee!

This has also given me some motivation as before I was like "BCC? I could fail half of my A2 modules and get that. Why should I bother trying?" but now I have to get BBB. Not out of reach but I will have to work hard. I got AA CC in AS but AS is easier than A2.

I reckon I can get A or a high B in sociology A or high B in Politics, C or B in Media, C in Enlgih and probably a C in General studies, maybe a B if I am lucky?

I looked at the General studies practise exam I took and I got a solid B which I was really pleased about. I know it is shameless boasting but it was the 4th highest in the year, although it would have been terrible if I didnt do well as it was about english, sociology and politics and there are probably only 3 or 4 of us that do all of these in the yeargroup.

It just reinforced my confidence that although I am just ok at things that other people study and try hard at, when it comes to doing something that involved you being thrown in and second guessing stuff, I usually come out on top. Its that luck again! haha!

I know I am stupendously big headed but at this moment I really do not care! I have a happy glow about me right now. I feel confident and ready to go! Woo! Besides, having a big head and being confident is exactly what you need in journalism. No more Mrs nice girl lol.

I have decided to become more assertive. I have always been happy to do the whole "I am aloof and better than you becuase I wont fight you". Well. Nanas to that lol. I am not going to be pushed around and trodden on any more! Leering chauvanists, abusive customers and thieves have put a stop to that. I just get walked on by them because I dont want to cuse a scene. Well now I will put up a fight against anybody who tries to keep me down.

Down boy! Sit!

Hehe. I am so hyped up. Maybe I made my coffee too strong....

Anyways. I need to have a shower before I go to school so see you around )